This is a Triumph

The weekend I mean, I PAX'ed it out. It was great, I've already made plans for next year. It was so much fucking fun, I don't think I've had that much fun in forever, I got tossed made bad decisions, saw my friends in compromised positions. I walked around, saw a really bad movie, ate McDonalds collected pins, watched my friends get their heads shaved. It was a wonderful time, a time to remember forever, things don't come together in such ways on a regular basis, and so now I'm starting to work a little bit more, at school and work but only through the end of the month hopefully I"ll survive then I hope you realize that I have entered into an agreement not to work more than 20 hrs per week... yes that is right I am contractually obligated not to work more than that. pretty fucked up isn't it. I also realized what would happen if everyone in the world was able to trace my blog back to me, I have been thinking alot about what it would mean to me, and if I would be proud of the truthful bits. I may have said some undeserved things, I can't imagine being some kind of politically slanted individual I would never be able to live down even half the things I've said, you know I have records of conversations I've had on the net for 7 years or something ridicules before it was easy you simply didn't say anything you didn't believe, or you don't right anything that you couldn't stand by, should our society still consider this to be the truth? or is it ok to say some things you don't believe, or something rash, that will be kept on the internet accessible to all in one form or another even if you delete it there are websites dedicated to saving the internet. I would question however if it could be saved. But now that our whole lives can be easily stored we realize the entire world is comprised of petty, immoral, mean, hypocritical, and stupid people. What does that say about us, about society, that we are all so fucked up. We all say these awful things, about awful people like ourselves, and then you re-read what you type and you question whether you believe it, but if you said things that you only believe in you wouldn't say much because the only thing you can definitely say you believe in are things that are so vague no-one can argue about them, or that are rhetoric. "I Believe in Freedom!" do you really unquestionably, for everyone to do anything that they want? what does freedom even mean anyway? and since you can construe anything that anyone says as fucking wrong then why bother trying, what not say things that even you question, why avoid getting trapped by your words if you are building a cage up around yourself. So I say try to say things that are the truth as you say them, and correct yourself when you change your mind.