The Force

A lot of these things I'm writing seem incredibly forced, and it's because it is, I'm trying to portray something that I am not sure I even believe myself, especially when it comes to the fact that I was poor, I more consider that to be an advantage, becuase we couldn't afford meat I learned out to build fences, feed animals, milk cows and goats, give medicine, keep grain, we actually had a granary, we picked apples raised corn, potatoes, canned, all these things I wouldn't have done if I would have been well off. So I don't consider it a disadvantage at this point, I learned to much from the experience for it to be a disadvantage. There we go there is the truth, although I am not sure exactly how useful it is to be able to can jam, or milk cows in the life I'm leading but still, I know how. So maybe I didn't get a pile of video consoles and never had cable tv, maybe I only owned 5 cds, and didn't go to the movie until I took myself. Most of the time I wore my shoes until they fell off, and I had to share winter boots with my brothers and sister. I still consider myself to be incredible lucky to have been able to experience everything that I did, up to and including dragging out of bed in the morning in the middle of December to walk up the hill and feed the sheep. What about school did I want to go? well my Mom said I could decide after middle school, I decided to stay out, I considered actually being in classes to be a waste of time, I'd rather do my work at home, and play with Legos, learn piano, take dance classes, play soccer, and of course raise animals. In the end my childhood was carefree, get up feed and milk the goats, feed the cows and sheep, feed the chickens, gather the eggs, clean the house, do my homework and by 2 in the afternoon my siblings and I were wandering around outside having adventures and playing games. I was horribly disadvantaged¿. Financially my family did struggle my dad was a logger, my mom stayed at home to teach and take care of us, we never had much money, but it just didn't matter.