What If

I am afraid, I am not afraid very often, but it is not very often that the results of an action are out of my hands, I want to go, I want to go in. I can't make them accept me. So as far out of my hands it is, it is also directly in my hands, I have 750 words to convince them, a task that would not be difficult if the words were not stuck to paper, glued down, immovable, black and white. What if when I open my mouth to spit words threw cords into a document labeled .txt. It is not the right combination of words, the safe stands as it is, I get put in the pile of hundreds of other people just like me, rejected, hope shattered, questioning, what now?